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❤ Date: Saturday, October 31, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADRIAN :D
adrian's birthday party last night at 15 minutes! :D
sitting beside this guy made me laughed till belly ache! hahaha.
ah i cant rmbr what we were laughing about! haha but based on alex' face, it must be something about him! haha what else right!
realized i've never took a pict with kingsley before, so here it goes. but alan the scary head has to go spoil the photo, as usual! hahah. tsk.
look so couplesy right! hahaha nelson, you lose alr!
there see, i dont want you, i go find tank alr :D
birthday boy! with a really weird smile idk why haha.
story behind this photo:
alex has been hugging tank for every pict, then alex suddenly sat in front of him and say, you hug me lei! hahaha the two gays ah, always trying to traumatize tank. poor him :D
cupcakes time!
faryz were seducing tank to share the cupcake and then all the guys started to shove their heads towards each other haha. see faryz's face was alr shouting "come here baby!" , but too bad ah, it didnt work out! haha major disappointment.
put two hunks tgt... and they'll think they are doing a photoshoot. tsk. haha.
over to winebar next! woohoo i srsly like sitting in weiming's van. anyway winebar was filled with people, or ghosts, or angels, whatever. took us quite awhile to get a table.
it was one for one orange juice night for the three of us :)
HAHA i thought she failed to take me!
ok last but not least, faryz couldnt stop going on and on about how he's reserved tank for sunday night. omg, this guy never gets tired haha.
anyway i had hell lots of fun! i laughed so much till my mouth ached and my throat went sore, again. haha these guys are super fun to be with. can't wait for tmrw night!!! gonna rock zirca, again!
p.s. still feel bad about what i said, sorry gajah!! you know i love you, xoxo. :(
❤ Date: Thursday, October 29, 2009
:(
Hot. (Punehto Chips) says: (12:00:12 AM)
i just want to know 我曾经对你来说也是重要的
jian leong says: (12:00:41 AM)
yes..u r zong yao 4 me..4 dis life..
jian leong says: (12:00:51 AM)
i got miss u too..
The longer after the break up, the more I realize, no other man can make me feel the way you did.
You're the only one.
❤ Date: Saturday, October 24, 2009
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"Well, I know I’ll never make things right and I’m fine with this as long as you sleep well at night. So sleep well at night cause what’s been said I surely meant and I’m happy for you if you’re happy without me."
- eletheowl
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"In that moment, I felt my heart break. and I thought, “I can’t live without you. I don’t want to live without you”, and then it slowly crept into my head that no matter how bad I wanted or needed you, it wouldn’t matter. Somehow, and very painfully, I was sure. My life would continue, with or without you."
- eletheowl
❤ Date: Thursday, October 22, 2009
someone to love and hold? out with 3cheers! today for dinner and ice-cream, wanted udders but we couldn't find 'cus i couldnt rmbr the exact location. went for b&j's at unitedsq instead and when we walked out of there, we saw udders right in front of us! hahaha that was damn idiotic. anyway we had lots of fun at toys'r'us, and that stupid kevin couldn't stop singing the damn toys'r'us song haha. & we tried all the halloween masks! all and all, it was damn fun 'cus we couldnt stop laughing :)
no picts cus it's all with prissy. uh, tmrw's one last day and embrace the weekends! not in my top form, and i'm feeling rly sucky. this is shingz-ed, hahaha omg. k will try to slp now, nights! <3
❤ Date: Wednesday, October 21, 2009
sally the snake:
I WANT !!!!
i shall see if there's any rip-off in sprees hehe, cheapo me. anyway school's been fine, but i'm always lethargic and restless and ended up talking to xiaozheng bout r/s stuffs during lessons. or texting, or msn-ing, or facebook chatting with lifang when i see her fb-ing in front of me haha. my modules are okay but like 3/5 are bout literature and it just makes me wanna yawn.
my lecturer for pop culture turns out to be my communications faci in w34f! & she still rmbrs me, :) ok no school tmrw but have to wake up at 6am tmrw, who ask me to agree to help out adrian in a shoot. ah, i can ramble on and on 'cus i dont want to slp and i have to. i luv my girls, i luv my 3cheers!+bin (we rly shld give ourselves a grp name), & you. and you, i miss you.
ok bye!
❤ Date: Tuesday, October 20, 2009
FTTTTTTT!
I need to book a date for my FTT or else this will just keep drag on and on and on. Hello pris and kev!
When!!!! I don't care y'all ah, I go book myself alr hehe.
❤ Date: Sunday, October 18, 2009
But I want you to move on, so I'm already gone.
Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go
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SawatiCupnoodles!
Uploaded the picts! Quite fast right I know. Ok, shall do some blogging before I head to bed.
Last night, brought the three girls out for their virgin clubbing experience at Zouk! Reached there when it was still a ghost club, but the dance floor got so packed after that it was impossible for us to squeeze in. & everybody only had like one square feet to dance in hahaha.
The music was good lei, we like. But the space, uh too cramped. Zirca next time ok! :)
Haha me imitating G.
We clubbed till the lights were back on, & then they came and stay over as planned. Sam & Ming concussed soon after but me and Wan had truck loads of fun hahaha. Had cup noodles at 6 in the morning, & I kept asking her not to sleep 'cus siaopeh me wasn't tired at all haha. At 7plus when I was about to fall asleep, Ming's calender reminder rang and then the tune felt so much like a thai song so I kept dancing thai dance to Wan and both of couldn't stop laughing hahaha!
We said a lot of stupid stuffs as well lah, like the snake and the indian man story. Haha that's what all the booze and sleepless nights are turning us into. Wan and I went shopping after that, and then I went to the apartment to meet the rest of the MSO people, it was hell funny. :)
Ok, one more day till school's in! Don't feel excited at all man, how? :S
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I knew you were the one from the moment we met, or at least I thought so. It doesn't matter that I'm loving and living this life I'm having now. It doesn't matter that I don't have to care bout your feelings anymore when I want to do anything. It doesn't matter that I can wear whatever I want, without being afraid that you will not like it, or that our clothes will be mismatched. It doesn't matter that I can give some strangers my number and danced with him and flirt with him whenever I want.
But it matters so much when at the end of the day I come home, and I don't see you around. It matters so much that before I head to bed, you're not there to say "goodnight, i love you." It matters so much that I'm no longer awakened by your daily good morning kiss before you leave for work. It matters so much that I'm no longer receiving your texts and calls. It matters so much that when I dance with some fucked-up strangers, you're all that I think about. It matters so much that when I wake up, I don't wake up to your texts. And just when I thought you don't miss me at all, you send me a goodnight msg when I least expected it. & it matters even more because that one single text made my heart cringe and made me cried buckets the moment I reached home.
I look at everything around me and everything reminds me of you. I look at your pictures and hate that I can't rewind time so I can just have you here one more time. I think about what's happening around me now and wonder what we'll be doing if you're still here. I miss holding your hands, making you laugh and kiss you wherever and whenever I want. You were mine for so long and now I just lost it. I swear I gave all my love, I sacrificed whatever I could, I cherished you so much I have never took you for granted for a single second. I miss you every moment even when we were still together. But why am I the one who has to suffer all these pain?
It's so tough trying to control myself from contacting you. I want to pick up the damn phone so badly just so I can cry and tell you that I miss you and I want you back so fucking badly. But I'm sane and sober enough to know that I'll be just crushed if I ever make that call. 'Cause I know how much it hurts to say "i miss you" to someone and never have it said back.
& even though this is torturing me, I know that I want you to be happy. Never mind that I'm exchanging all these tears for your happiness. Never mind that this is going to haunt me forever. I love you so I'm letting you go, allowing you to find happiness. Right now you feel that you'll be happier without me, so I'm not holding you back anymore. But if one day you realise only with me, then you'll be truly happy, then please come back, 'cus I'll be right here waiting for you, as long as I could.
❤ Date: Thursday, October 15, 2009
MSO, :)
Some picts from Stomp:
Haha me and Darryl during the Q&A session.
The guys, Top 5 in front.
The one in beige: Mr International 2008, the one in black: Mr Singapore 2008 (Alex lah), and me the trophy girl once again! Haha.
& Alan, president of Mr Singapore Organisation. Ok and me! Look at my eyes, think I'm looking at Zam or someone there lah. Haha.
Woo, lastly: me and Nelson. I like this pict, it's very nice :)
Ok it's fun overall, can't wait for NUM show on 1st Nov. Same guys again! :)
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:)
"The next time you forget you’re Blair Waldorf, remember I’m Chuck Bass. And I love you.”
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Monday to monday, friday to friday.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xt1jhoP4Btg
Anyway, girls' day out today! Ming and I went for some Cotton-on-'lovin this afternoon and got myself a really cute jacket for only 16bucks! Hee, thanks Ming. And then met Sam, and then Wan for dinner at J8 after my tuition. It was really fun, and full of crap. Oh what else right? Ok, friday we are gonna rock the entire night! Can't wait ;)
*Happy with what I have now, contented with what we are. I don't want to lose this but I wish you could be happier, like I am now.*
❤ Date: Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Fighter Sam! THIS IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO SAMMO THE FIGHTER!!!
Fighter - Christian Aguilera
When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
'Cause your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm
After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Oh, ohh
Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh
After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
DON'T GIVE UP BABE! LOVE YOU!
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I don't want.
I have a feeling I'm going to cry bitterly later. Shit. Cross my fingers and wish me luck.
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If you love something, let it go. If it comes back, it's yours. If it doesn't, it never was. These days... it's dfficult. Today is like the fourth day and well, okay I guess I'm coping well. But you do know that it's inevitable for me to tear too. I don't want to be some pathetic worm so I keep telling myself I'm gonna stay strong and everything's gonna be over soon. Happy times will come again. But I feel damn miserable when I thought about no one's gonna hold your hand and pull you through the darkest hours, nor anyone will be there to kiss my forehead when I'm yearning for some sweetness. It's so tough, I miss you so much. What makes me better is that when I miss you, I still get to call and talk to you. That little gesture makes everything feels good. At least, it's not that torturous to handle. Just now, I heard you say "I miss you", my heart warmed. Even though you may miss me just a tiny wee bit, but it's really better than nothing. And when I wanted to hear "I love you" and you said it, though you didn't want to. I guess you don't want to give me false hope, but eventually when you spelled it out, I'm still happy. Because you still care for me, at the very least. Never thought that I will have to let go of you, but I will survive okay, don't worry. And not holding up my hopes, but I still have the feeling that we'll be back together. Cus I know you are the One, maybe you don't feel it now, but who knows right? Cus I keep thinking about the feeling I had for you the moment we met, I knew, I really knew you are going to be the One. And to comfort myself, this may be just one of the tests we have to undergo 'cus this is true love. I'm not sure if I'm in denial, but you can't lie to yourself your own feelings right? Nonetheless, promise I wouldn't wait and will start to try moving on. But if one day we get another chance to be together, I'll definitely grab hold of it and shall never let go again anymore.
Thanks to my friends: 3cheers!, Punehto especially. Luv y'all so so much.
❤ Date: Saturday, October 10, 2009
MSO 2009 :)
Last night: Mr Singapore's finals at Zirca!
Reached there at two to make preparations for the big event which has been anticipated for a good long time. Planned to start the show at 930 so we were all hyped up for hair and make-up by evening time ;)
Once I sat at the make-up artist's chair, I said "I want smokey eyes". & there you go :
Ok, this is Mr. Bishan, the one who was crowned Mr Singapore at the end of the day! :)
Alex <3, he looked so handsome in here me likey.
Ok, so after the event, it's finally party time! Gotten free drinks vouchers and there I went to meet my most idiotic friends ever - 3cheers! & well, we did what we were most capable of, dancing and playing and fooling around (yes you kevin), drinking and got really really high haha. It was damn fun!
Went to the bar and these two told me the bartender behind is from RP as well, so I asked him for free drinks since we were all from the same school hehe. & we got it!!!
Eh you two look so couple-sy here, I jealous :@
Omg, I have to tell this story hahaha. So the 3 of us got really high and then I pulled them to the somewhere like a stage in the dancefloor, like everybody could see you dance over there. & then behind us was this ang moh boy who carried a backpack when he danced. Awhile later he came and cuddled the 3 of us and said "HEY!" and started talking to me. I was scared so I kept giving Kev the eye, and then he danced danced to switch position with me so he was standing right in front of the angmoh and then he told me something like "No no no~ you can only dance with me!" in a super funny way omg hahahaa.
Hahaha moral of the story: Bring a trustworhty guy friend when you go clubbing. Kev was our shield all night haha.
"You are the most idiotic friend I've ever had" :)
Loves!!!
You two + Bin are like my bestest friends, I never have to hide my true self when I'm with y'all. I know y'all too!
3cheers! sent Pris home at 4 due to her curfew haha, but then we chatted at the coffeeshop after that and Kev even accompanied me till 6plus then we took the first bus home. Haven't been like this for awhile alr, love you guys so much. Thanks for the company!!! <3
OH and finally I found one picture of me on stage, hahahah.
Ok, enough of what's happening up front. Now I'm going to take you behind the scenes!
Mr Singapore preview show, which means, not yesterday.
Backstage, with some contestants and dressers. :)
All the guys plus make-up artists, hairstylists.
Haha the guy with the Boomz tee is the big boss of NUM.
Okay, I had fun! & in like another hour's time there's another Mr Singapore post party at someone's house, I'm still contemplating if I should go 'cus I'm totally zonked out alr. But I don't want to miss out having fun. Urgh, how how?!