I'm really really happy and contented how things has turned out during these two days. Somehow, it was even more than what I've expected. Sam asked if I'm finally feeling secured now, I thought so, but I'm still afraid. I know his feelings now and I'm really glad, but when I think about the fact that he's still not mine, I'm still afraid. It's like you're grabbing onto something but you can lose grip of it anytime. I don't like this feeling but I know I shouldn't complain anymore. From zero to what I have now, I've put in so much effort. I have to remind myself that I should be contented, 'cause if I complain about what I have now, they might just take everything away and I can't afford that to happen.

Aside from that, I feel blessed these days. Have you ever spend time with someone so special that you think you guys complete each other? It's like when you're with that person, you've found your missing piece. When I was with him, my heart felt so secure and for the first time in so long, I am genuinely filled with happiness and not worries. Not one worry has struck me when I was with him. When in doubt, I'll hold your hand and everything will be alright. When I'm sad, I pout, and you will come around and place your forehead against mine, hold my hands and give me a kiss. You are never good at words but I know what you're trying to convey with ever single action of yours. And I love them. I love how you laugh till you're breathless. I love holding your hands when you drive.  I love it when I tried to let go of your hand and you grabbed it the moment I lose grip. Most importantly of all, I love you.

It's amazing how you can not meet someone for the longest time, but when fate brings you back together, it's as though you guys were never apart. I think that's wonderful. That means there's something special between the both of you. And I'm so so glad I managed to find a love so strong. Though the next time I'll see you is a month away. But like what Chris said, a month for a lifetime of happiness? I guess it's all worthwhile. I think so too. I can't wait, baby, to hug you, kiss you and hold your hands whenever we go :)