This space has been filled with all sorts of emo posts that makes people wants to kill themselves after reading it. But I'm so sorry 'cus the author here isn't in a happy place now so just bear with it. I'm waiting for my sunshine after this rain as well. Can't wait to be truly happy and worry-free, just like before.

Yesterday was heart-breaking, actually it is, everyday. But last night I was hurt to the extent that I couldn't breathe. But I'm really thankful to these 5 people who're my first choice to turn to, and they never ran away - Sam, Casse, Wan, Ming and Venice. Thanks for tolerating all my nonsense and my depressing thoughts. You guys are so supportive, I'm really thankful for all of your existence. I have the most wonderful girlfriends around. Go on, be jealous :)

But later at night everything felt better. It seems so silly but yet it's true that the one who's making you hurt is the only one who can take all the pain away. One phone call and it changes everything. The hurt in my heart went away in an instant and soon my msn was again filled with the long-lost smiley faces. Though I'm afraid that some time soon these days he's going to say another word and all the pain will come back and find me but I really like how I'm feeling now so I'm just hoping that it won't be replaced by pain again.

My sweethearts have been telling me to just stay positive and stop thinking all bout the woes. It'll just bring me down and I think they're right. Today I hasn't cried and I'm truly happy for that even though it seemed like nothing to some of you. I can't wait to see him and there's only another four days to go and I'm really excited. There's nothing else I can do now but hope for the best. I hope all of you here will hope for the best for me too. And I need luck, lots and lots of them. 'Cus this time is my last chance and I'm going all out to get my happiness back.

:)