actually it's not until tomorrow, but i reckon i won't have time to blog about this tomorrow so i'll do it now. tomorrow, the 23rd of december would be mark the day where we had our first night together. nothing kinky, *winks, haha but it's one night to remember. two years back, i had a big crush on you, it was the biggest thing i've ever had for somebody i barely knew. i remember falling in love with you the second time i saw you, i didn't even know your full name. and the next thing i know, gladys was laughing at me for going gaga over the mere sight of your name tag.

one night after work, i jokingly asked if you want to send me home. surprisingly, you agreed to it. i was in a deep shock. i remembered us meeting outside topman cus we didnt want anyone else to know, but well i was so excited i couldnt hide my anxiety. and on the bus, you told me you've got a girlfriend and my heart sunk at that point of time. i didn't know what to do. while you went on and on about her, all i could think was, shit i have to talk to gladys right now, holy shit.

i suppressed all my feelings, and then we had supper at the coffeeshop downstairs. it was after midnight when we finished the meal, we continued to talk and talk endlessly about everything under the sun. we never ran out of topics but i wasn't truly happy cus i was bothered by the fact that you're attached. and then she called and i felt embarrassed and upset when i hear you guys talk on the phone. i was thinking, man this guy is never gonna be mine. the talk continued till daylight. we had breakfast together at the same place, and then at six am, you left to catch the first bus home, while i went home to get my sleep.

it's funny how things turned out after that, though i'm ashamed of what happened in the middle of it. but the twists and turns of events brought us together in the end, anyway. that night was special, cus it was our first night together. and that night, it made me fell madly in love with you. two years from then, i'm falling even deeper, its way too deep. i can never live without you.

you're so damn amazing i dont know how i made you fell in love with me in the first place, i'm just an average girl who has nothing good. but damn, you're everything i wanted to be. i love you baby, i really do. i hope this time, it would last. "happy first night ever anniversary" :)