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❤ Date: Saturday, January 30, 2010
why you so bo liew?
3cheers! went shopping at ikea today! went over to rp to meet the two of them first, quite alot have changed, the atm have shifted and then there's a shop called "peacemakers" and there's a huge wall picture of minghee at the entrance and i didn't get to drink my favourite milk tea :(
the journey to ikea was super long and torturous to the both of you i know, i am sorry haha. thanks for accompanying me there to get my stuffs, you guys are great :)
got this for tangle so he can stop stealing mine. it looks like a bear version of archie cus of the pimples haha
"no one snatches my food!"
ate alot today anyway hehe
omg the chicken wings are the bessssst!
i can't stop laughing at kev's face hahaha, you got so tired meh? boliew.
almost got this lamp! abit girlish for me aye? but it's nice though.
:)
borrowed some new invented words from kev's friend and we ended up making sentences with these stupid words and we kept laughing non-stop. don't know quite how to describe here so i'm not going to try, just know that we had fun! :) bought quite some stuffs from ikea anyways - colourful clothes hanger, paper tray, the bear and the photo hanger which i've to either wait for kev or my brother in law to help me fix it on my wall. it's gonna be pretty, i can't wait!
❤ Date: Friday, January 29, 2010
always my sunshine,
i hope this month's allowance is already here, can't check though - ibanking is down. i really need cash cus i'm going to buy stuffs for my room tomorrow from ikea. yay to going out with prissy and kev, i miss them both and i need lots of kev's latest updates ha. anyway, today has been quite an emotional ride. it's the first time i've ever felt this way, to just give up and hide away. i'm not someone who will avoid responsibilities but today, i did. it's not a good thing, but once in a while, it feels great to just let yourself free and not dwell on anything. for the first time in my life, i avoided his calls. my heart aches everytime the phone starts to ring and his picture starts to show up on the screen, but i kept telling myself not to pick up. i don't know exactly what i was dodging, but i knew i really needed a break from everything. from the moment we became a couple, i had to deal with extraordinary stuffs that other couples don't have to deal with. not that i'm complaining, but two years into it, it's starting to take on its toll and i'm beginning to feel the strain. the quarrels and everything are just fucked-up and for just one day, you wish you don't have to resolve it and just let the problems disappear by themselves, but they wouldn't. i must applaud anyway, for the fact that i could resist the temptation of just picking up the phone and call him for nearly 20 hours. i.am.bravo. everyone knows how needy i am to him, but there, i did it!
i gave my heart and my mind a big break today and i'm really glad i did. nevertheless, at around 1 am i finally caved in and gave him a call and talked things through. at least it's all good now, i can hear birds chirping and smell sunshine all around me haha. i love him so much, all of you know that. i just needed some time off, not for anybody, just for myself. i guess everyone should do it sometime. just fuck care anybody's else needs and responsibilities and what-nots, if you feel like you need a holiday, go for it. cause you're the one living your life, not anybody else.
aye, just my two cents' worth :)
❤ Date:
没有你会死掉，
想念蔓延在细胞
想妳的拥抱
妳的微笑
想到快要疯掉
爱妳到莫名其妙
上了瘾无可救药
没有妳
会死掉
我不再开心的笑
痛苦在胸口燃烧
在妳离开以后
寂寞把我逼进了墙角
不听别人的劝告
才掉进妳的圈套
现在知道
却放不掉
世界慢慢的变老
戒不掉对妳的依靠
失去重心该怎么好
每个表情都能治疗
相思的煎熬
戒不掉妳对我的好
像被关在想念的牢
只剩寂寞缠绕着我
我无路可逃
就是戒不掉对妳的依靠
就是戒不掉妳对我的好
❤ Date: Thursday, January 28, 2010
再不用多久，
你总是说我在
这样孤单时候
才会想与你联络
然而谈的情
说的爱不够
说来就来 说走就走
怎么会不懂我
怎么会不知道
女人的心是脆弱
寂寞不是我
不能够忍受
只是每一天
我想你太多
其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过
其实不想走
其实我想留
留下来陪你每个春夏秋冬
你要相信我
再不用多久
我要你和我今生一起度过
❤ Date:
ting ting na neng yu.
can anybody be my tutor for 文学'你'论? studying from the slides was already a chore, then when i try to study from the textbook, i just died. i swear for the first time, i put all my heart and soul in it to absorb, i did understand most of the part but i'm already strained. & you know how much i've studied? --- the important points she noted in one single slide. i'll kowtow to anybody who can study this module for hours straight. it's so damn bloody difficult!
❤ Date: Sunday, January 24, 2010
where got so lucky?!
I had a dream about turtles and somehow I linked it to prosperity. Like they say when you dreamed of snakes, you are going to win money. So I told Mom to buy 4D for me - 5031. & told B to help me buy 0360 over there. And so, 1503 came up for Singapore's 4D. & 0361 came up in Malaysia. Urgh, just one digit difference! :(
❤ Date:
my heart is filled with you.
You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes I can't pretend though I try to hide I like you I like you I think I felt my heart skip a beat I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe You got me, Yeah You got me The way you take my hand it's just so sweet And that crooked smile of yours It knocks me off my feet Oh, I just can't get enough I'm astute, I need to fill me up It feels so good it must be love Cuz everything that I've been dreaming of I give up, I give in, I let go, let's begin Cuz no matter what I do Oh, oh my heart is filled with you I can't imagine what it be like (Oh) Living each day in this life without you (Oh) Without you (Oh) One look from you I know you understand (Oooh) This mess were in, ya know It's just so...out of hand. Oh, I just can't get enough I'm astute, I need to fill me up It feels so good it must be love Cuz everything that I've been dreaming of I give up, I give in, I let go, let's begin Cuz no matter what I do Oh, oh my heart is filled with you I hope we always feel there's a way (I know we will) And in my heart I know that you will always stay Oh, I just can't get enough I'm astute, I need to fill me up It feels so good it must be love I give up, I give in, I let go, let's begin Cuz no matter what I do Oh, I just can't get enough I'm astute, I need to filll me up It feels so good it must be love (Cuz everything that I've been dreaming of) I give up, I give in, I let go, let's begin Cuz no matter what I do Oh, oh my heart is filled with you Oh, Oh You got me, You got me Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh You got me, You got me
pa & ma's spects.
my favourite body part of his
certis cisco's family day @ sentosa
holland road
KL
valentines day @ pulau ubin
kaizer's bday @ dajie's house
malacca
i ❤ you
❤ Date: Friday, January 22, 2010
'cus you had a bad day.
today is such a bad day. first the presentation was a mess - the ppt and everything. first thing in the morning and it has alr caused such chaos in me. it's not anybody else's fault, i mean who asked me to not double-check the content aft transferring the file right. it's just i'm a little disappointed that it didn't go well as expected cus i did put in effort aesthetics-wise before the presentation. & then things after that was still a mess, events didn't go according to plan. i wonder why but i'm really frustrated. i know i'll be all up and chirpy if i get to webcam with baby now but the fastest he can get his webcam fixed is perhaps two days later? have you ever miss someone so much that you just feel damn irritated with it? like you wished you could kiss him and hug him right this moment but you can't. weird emotions have been bottling up inside me for the past few days and i am so easily irritated i'd rather stay in and not talk to anyone. today is just bad. & i hope today ends quickly so i am one day closer to seeing baby, and also to spend another 24 in a fresh good day.
❤ Date: Thursday, January 21, 2010
polaroid corner.
shopping spree with ming today! bought quite a lot of stuffs, i'm contented cus i finally have clothes to wear to school, yippee. i hope my sugar daddy gives me money asap this month cus i really have to buy a lot of things. stupid camera, it has to die on me at this point of time :( ming brought me to this jap restaurant for dinner tonight and i'm in love with it! couldn't stop raving to leong bout how great the salmon is, i can't wait for him to come over so i can bring him there. feels absolutely amazing to be in a relationship with a fellow glutton *grins*
❤ Date: Friday, January 15, 2010
that's my sweetheart.
that day when we were out, i didn't put on any makeup. afterwards when i came out of the toilet with makeup applied, he looked at me and said:
"you got put makeup meh?"
i nodded. and he scrutinized my face again and said:
"no difference lei. i guess maybe to me, with or without makeup, you always look so pretty."
:)
❤ Date: Wednesday, January 13, 2010
以后就别再分开了
so, baby went back this morning alr and i cried like mad. knew this day was going to come but still, couldn't control my tears since last night. these seven days were amazing, with him around, it's like rainbows and sunshine and laughters and smiles, nothing can bring us down. & i especially love those heart to heart talk where i tell him how much he means to me and how much me to him. having a long-distance relationship is really tough, and i don't know how long i can hold out. but for him, i know i'll persevere till the very end. for him, i'll do just almost anything.
❤ Date: Monday, January 11, 2010
“因为在遥远的天边，有一个在等我，守护我的天使”
i am in bliss.
i absolutely love having him around, just having him is enough for everything. we do the stuffs we like, we go to the places we fancy and we talk like no one else understands. i love him. as i watch him leaving in a cab just now, i thought "he's gonna be my baby forever".
saw a shooting star today! so unexpectedly and i am happy bcus we were holding hands when we saw it, and i was singing love song to him hehe so sweet right i know though he didn't get to see it. :(
two to three more days left, i'm dreading it. i know he's not gonna be able to stay but seven days are not enough. i want him by my side forever :(
side note: my camera's spoilt! out of so many days it has to spoil now!
❤ Date: Wednesday, January 6, 2010
"I was hanging in the corner with my four best friends."
finally the whole of punehto went out today for some sushi actions. we five are gluttons and we can't stop eating and talking and crapping and laughing, and we come up with all sorts of stupid games just so we can laugh. :)
today, the joke master is of cus gladys wong! or (ugly gladys wong hahaha)
joke one.
scenario: taking ugly pictures of one another
me: omg we should set up a tumblr and post gross pictures
ming: like fuckyeahgrosspictures.tumblr.com!
me: yeah, and the grossiest picture would of cus be gladys'
gladys: aye what, where got grorss?
the other four: HAHAHAHAH GRORSS
gladys: hahaha what y'all laughing at, i said grorss leh
the other four: HAHAHAHAH GROSS LAH!
gladys: oh, i still thought i correct
HAHAHAHAH
joke two.
scenario: playing name game in which if we say a name, we must say another name which starts with the alphabet which the last name ends with. example, first name: samantha, second name must starts with A.
one of us: aye shit i stuck sial, 'I' very hard eh.
gladys: ann-ree-guay ee-gla-saiss
me: HAHAHAHAHAHA
casse: (stunned) what?
me: enrique iglesias!
HAHAHAHA BUAY TAHAN
WAN, YOU VERY AWK. WARD. LEH
oh joke three. this one not involving gladys
scenario: hungry me was imagining casse as a huge sushi roll and was being irritated by her non-stop chanting
casse: blah blah blah blah
me: casse can you just shut up? you know in my head you are alr a giant sushi roll, DONT MAKE ME EAT YOU
(later in the toilet)
casse: blah blah blah blah
me: oie enough hor sushi roll, DONT MAKE ME EAT YOU. faster come out of the toilet lei, why sushi roll so long one haha
casse: wait lah, sushi roll having menses
*sam, ming and i paused for a second*
ming: ok, that just killed all of our appetites
hahahahah grorss sial!
girls' night out are always fun, to have them as my best friends is such huge blessing. ok, i promised b i'll pack my luggage today so i shall. and i will. :S
another 8 hours hehehehehehe!
❤ Date: Tuesday, January 5, 2010
happy thoughts,
ttomorrow i shall conquer the test, go for my dental, and meet my girlz for sushi. & the day after tomorrow, you know what's gonna happen? i'm gonna meet the love of my life... i love life!
❤ Date: Sunday, January 3, 2010
03102010.
i remember going out with cassandra and sam on this day, i vaguely remember we had gelare and then on the train i joyously said to sam "i'm finally single after two years!". sam had to leave so i brought casse to hip diners' for dinner, and before i left, i said to him, "do you wanna send me home?" it was meant to be a joke, but then he agreed to it, to be honest i was shocked. & so we hanged around downstairs, the usual spot, our lao di fang ;) he put his hands ard my shoulders and i was flushed. then he gently kissed my cheeks and my hair and said i smelt nice haha. & then he told me, "i love you." i looked at him, stunned. i said, "what?" he said, "i love you, shouldn't you reply something?" i hesitated for a long while and i couldn't stop giggling. finally i replied. "i love you too." & then this bastard turned and said, "finish?" i glared at him, frowning. and then he started singing, "i love you, you love me, we are happy family~"
yeah fuck right hahaha that's how i confessed to him -.- but after that he said it again, "i love you", this time not a barney theme song, he meant it fr his heart. later that night, we kissed for the first time and before he left, he said, "so, i should call you dear now. bye dear, i love you."
so, that was two years ago on this very night. it was amazing and unbelievable. if you'd ever hear bout the story of my crush on him and how i went gaga over the mere sight of his name tag, i'll definitely top your list for the "craziest bitches of all time". two years later, it's still as amazing and unbelievable that i've found this man and he has fallen in love with me. though we've been apart in status, and still apart physically but i know we are always in each other's hearts and that's all that matters. to be able to have you as a partner, i'm eternally grateful. a few more days and we shall reunite again, it gets me so excited i couldn't sleep last night. i love you baby, i always will. happy second anniversary :)
❤ Date: Saturday, January 2, 2010
TWENTY-TEN!
ello wello happy new year everyone! time passes so quickly uh, one moment i'm still reminiscing 2008, another moment i'm alr celebrating the arrival of 2010. wonder if your countdown went well? mine certainly went with a blast. i hope this good ending bodes well for the new year too. my 2009 was mundane for most parts, most exciting memory was hongkong for my birthday which still comes flashing on my mind every now and then. but then 2009 disappointed me at the later half when we broke up, had the biggest heartbreak and lost the love of my life. but at the very end, i had him back in my arms again. sooooo idk how i shld feel bout this year, but i wish 2010 can be smooth-sailing and without any major hiccups. great that 09 is over, it's time for good things to move apart so better things can get together in 2010, cheers!
my last day of 2009 was spent with my secondary school friends, kickstarted the day with mahjong session at wilson's. i miss all of them hehe, chin's super gayness and how amazingly irritating karhao can be, but all in all, i love all of them and now it's 2010, we're stepping into our 7th year alr. wow!
after MJ, some left while most of us proceeded on with karaoke singing at top one. had great deal of fun, as expected. it's still the old songs that made us super high, for one great example: "i dont wanna miss a thing" by aerosmith, woohoo that's my climax of the whole night haha. by 11:59, the screen came on the countdown alarm thingy and we welcome 2010 in our karaoke room. it was nice and different for once, pity we didnt get to see the fireworks but other than that, everything turned out really fine :)
i luv you girls, you guys are my bestest friends and too bad ming cant join us on that night. the single lad(ies) have to countdown with fwens while you get to celebrate with 71 uh! lucky bitch, we love you nonetheless hee.
k still think that gladys and wilson looked damn compatible over here.
wan, i think you can ditch mr k (the handsome one) and choose wilson, i bet he does a better impersonation of james blunt than mr k (again, the handsome one)!
whee nice time catching up with chrissypoo, i love you!
still thinks sec sch friends are the best, we are so used to one another's flaws, it no longer irritates you (k not talking bout karhao over here) haha, thanks for celebrating the arrival of '10 with me guys. love y'all so much, will love y'all till 2100 :D
last but not least, happy twenty ten everyone,
here's to an amazing year ahead! :)